This is Me. I am Enough.

This pic for some reason made me super emotional.

It looks most like me. 

I’m never surprised by God’s goodness, but I’m always in awe of it. 

I had about 20 scholarship offers out of high school. Most were mid majors, one was D2. I was never ranked. I compared myself to my all American teammates. I knew the Geno Auriema’s & Kim Mulkey’s weren’t coming to watch me, but coming to watch the star post players I played with. Thankfully I have a dad who is smart in basketball & intentionally placed me on teams with the best post players in the country. I never had ball is life post me, my highlight videos were homemade by my dad. I wanted to play for NC state so badly that I made myself a highlight video of all my no look passes on iMovie, because they wanted a point guard. They never offered me. I never went to the camps where players went to get ranked, because I was always serving on mission trips. I had a trainer tell me if I was serious about basketball, I’d stop going on these mission trips so I could go to those camps. 

A “recruiting” guy in high school somehow got my number & told me I’d be a great “low to mid major player” & I was extremely offended. My sophomore year I got a letter from a D3 school saying I’d be a “perfect fit”. I bawled my eyes out, haha! 

I’m a risky player. I shoot pull up 3’s, I make no look passes, one handed passes, & I let my emotions flow out. Not many people like that about me. But that’s me. 

I’ve never felt good enough in college basketball. You always know when someone has confidence & trust in you, it’s obvious. The truth is, I’m never going to get my vertical as high as everyone else, I’m not going to grow an inch or two, I’m not going to magically become something I’m not. 

But I will work harder than you, I will outsmart you, I will play with more passion than you, & I will be the best teammate on any team I ever play on. I am invaluable for everything I do & don’t do. And that’s more than enough. 

This is me.

And I got emotional seeing me, with an S on my chest. It doesn’t seem real. It was a “no brainer” for them, they said. There was no risk in their mind. This was a given, that I belong. 

It’s funny how we can forget who we are after believing for so long that we would never measure up, when all along, we were meant for so much more. 

All you need is a thought, that you can & you will. There will be 10 people telling you how you can’t & you shouldn’t. But just a thought, is all you need, to believe & have faith. 

I see the size of the promise & I know the size of my God, on the other hand I hear all the reasons why God can’t use a little person like me who never did this on this level before. God put me here & called me here to do it. Set me out apart to do it. 

The enemy can’t take away anything that God has given to you. Faith is supposed to filter out things that will cause you to walk away from something you’re supposed to walk into. 

This is me. And God’s got me. I made a promise to Him that I’d do all of this for Him. My story isn’t about myself & how I made it. It’s about how God delivered me from a lot of pain, rejection, & identity issues, into a faithful, loyal, & secure follower of Jesus. 

This is me. I am enough. More than enough. I’ve always been that.